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Jan 17, 2011

Mr. Awesome Writes Another Song

Today Jash and I spent the day together. Yesterday I cam back and we were Finally Reunited which you can read about in the next post.... but we sat on the dock... He pulled out his guitar and played me a song... This is the second song he wrote and the second that is for me. He said he wrote this over the break and he worked very hard on it...which i can tell. I love it!!!

Misfit in Distress

My white horse, he is not so white
And my armors gotten rusty and doesn't shine so bright.
I've lost my sword and my shield for my protection
And my compass lost it's needle, and I have no direction.
And this dungeon is so cold tonight.

So won't you come and rescue me?
Won't you come and breath your life back into me?
Won't you come and break my chains with one of your smiles?
Wont you come and hold me tight?
Won't you come and let me see day light in your eyes?
Come riding in with the strength that you posses
And rescue me, Your misfit in distress

I can't face, I can't face my own dragons
I"m so weighed down with baggage
And the chains around my soul.
And oh, I need your arms right here
I need your shoulder for my tears
You're the rock I lean on.
You are What I lean on


I love you My Em

Jan 8, 2011

The Notebook - Nicholas Sparks

This is one of my most Favorite books!! And here are some quotes I can relate to right now.

"So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday."

"I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours. "

"You are, and always have been, my dream."

"You are my best friend as well as my lover, and I do not know which side of you I enjoy the most. I treasure each side, just as I have treasured our life together."

"You are the answer to every prayer I've offered. You are a song, a dream, a whisper, and I don't know how I could have lived without you for as long as I have."

"In times of grief and sorrow I will hold you and rock you and take your grief and make it my own. When you cry I cry and when you hurt I hurt. And together we will try to hold back the floods to tears and despair and make it through the potholed street of life

"Noah: "You wanna dance with me?"
Allie: "Sure. Now?"
Noah: "Mmm Hmm"
Allie: "You're not supposed to dance in the street."
Noah: "You are supposed to dance in the street."
Allie: "Yeah, but we don't have any music."
Noah: "Well, we'll make some... Bum bum bum bum bum bum..."
Allie: "You're a terrible singer."
Noah: "I know."
Allie: "And I like this song."

"Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That's what it was like for me. I didn't plan on falling in love with you, and I doubt if oyu planned on fallin gin love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me, love like that has happened only once, and that's why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I'll never forget a single moment of it."

"She would tell him what she wanted in her life--her hopes and dreams for the future--and he would listen intently and then promise to make it all come true. And the way he said it made her believe him, and she knew how much he meant to her."

Mr. Awesome's Letter

Jash wrote this on his blog and i had to fight back the tears.... I promise that my love will never become like Yellowing Letters. WOW!!!!

Yellowing Letters.
I am writing you this letter
Although you will probably never read it
I have dozens of other letters just like it
That you will never read because I have not given them to you.
They sit in my notebook between
Rambling poems and broken stories, yellowing.
I just thought I would tell you that
Your eyes are the most beautiful things I have ever seen.
I know it's cliche,
But it's true.
And your smile is like the sunset,
Bright and warm and dazzling
When you catch it at just the right time.
Oh well, I guess I'll stop
And go do something productive,
For about five minutes until I
Start thinking about you again.
My love will never yellow.

How words make me feel tonight...

Here are my thoughts right now. Thoughts from days gone by. Feelings....after some point do words lose their meaning? Can a text or a message or a wall post replace the sound of your voice? I've cried for so long to just hear you talk to me. To see your face. You've written such sweet poetry and made my heart skip a beat. You've sent me text that melt my heart and bring tears to my eyes. But with the distance and the time....I have reached my limit. So much has been said,and so deep have we talked... you have opened up your heart...but only to a girl on the other side of a text. Here I sit in Central Florida and you are up in New York... are only communication are the sounds of keys. From cellphones to computers....everything has been said through them... I've had the blessing to hear your voice 4 times so far. Most of the time we were limited to just minutes...but how tears formed and worries faded.... but now...I'm so just overloaded with all of this.. You heart as been poured out and so has mine. The problem is in the reassurance of your eyes.. those that I have lacked to see in sooo long. How they hold truth. And how your arms comfort me so and let me know that your yes is yes and your no is no... and with what you say you will not let me go....But alas... I can not have that right now. So ....i sit here..and I struggle. Will you still be like this when we are back together? Will you still talk this way, so open and honest? Will you still feel this way or is it loneliness? Will you still keep to your promises will you still want the same things? I feel like you have gotten comfortable with a girl named Text.

When Do Words Impact the most?
When Do Words find their importance?
Wen Are Words Used the right way?
When words are written from the heart, preserved for all the world to see?
When words are spoken, in a moment captured to be remembered, by you and me?

Jan 6, 2011

Mr. Awesome Strikes again

So...there are 10 days left in our count down until being reunited. Mr. Awesome... my boyfriend Jash.... strikes with his poetry yet again. This was in my inbox on facebook.

I wrote this for you...

Prounouns are wonderful things.
Eyes are dazzling.
She is dazzling.
Can I tell you about her?
What's that?
You ask me why I only use prounouns
When I talk about her?
It's simple really,
Her name makes my heart
Skip a beat or two
And it's not polite to let your heart
Skip a beat are two
In front of company.
She loves traffic, and adores red lights
So she can have more time to sing in the car.
She loves hot chocolate, and she shrugs
Her shoulders with delight
When she drinks it.
She is scared of storms sometimes
But that's okay because that's what
My arms are for.
She wants to travel and see the world,
But always come back home.
I want her to know that she can run
Into my arms
And not worry about being who I need her
To be
But just
To be

Jan 3, 2011

Only The Stars Understand

Here is a Thought...A passing moment in time...Held in my heart all night...but written in the early of morning...Most likely by some chance... to be read tomorrow. Not by any means is this an attempt to bring forth tears, or to speed up a heart beat. Simply thoughts from a girl who has finally come home...but to a home where her heart is not at. A story...a sad story..but a true story none the less.... This is a story of Juliet and her Romeo

Part 1: The Escape

Here I sit in a place once again...
Back here where there is an escape.
A back door, an exit sign,
No questions asked.
Slip right out the door...
and i'm gone.

Noise has filled my head for countless days,
OH how busyness has been my constant companion.
When the door is closed and it is just the four walls,
sounds such as consistent chatter,
and laughter,
are coming through!

But now,
Back in this place once again...
A thought, then a glance,
How quickly can this be done?
shoes on my feet,
and warm clothes on my body.
I hit the door,
No questions from anybody.

How the air stings my cheeks that were so warm,
The Wind plays with my eye lashes.
Little tears start to form in this dash.
My hands become victim to the biting of the cold.
My feet and my legs have no time for such distractions,
Knowing the destination of heart and mind.

Oh... a stop.
One more step and the destination will have been reached.
Onto the dock my feet take me.
My heart stops. Restart. And beats slowly.
My head no longer is spinning with distractions.
My mind goes blank.

Tonight I sit,
I have no need to ponder in the depths of a sad soul,
There is none to be found.
It is only I who sit here.
Taking a moment to finally catch a breath.
I look around and there they are.

The stars
Oh how I have missed your twinkle.
Here I sit and talk to you oh Father
Creator of the stars.
I have missed this Sanctuary!

Part 2: My Companion Tonight, The Stars

Time paces by and I find my self glancing back,
A thought of another,
My companion.
Wondering if he is approaching.
Walking to hide away with me.

My Romeo, Oh my Romeo,
Where have you gone?
Are you not coming down the hill this very moment,
Gray sleeves hidden by a black jacket
Jeans covering your legs from the cold
Hands in your pocket trying to be warm.

Alas, No.
A trick of the mind.

As I sit on the arms of the dock,
Romeo! I see you, yet again.
Only in a foggy haze,
This time you are chasing... Juliet around.
Teasing and laughing.
You push her away but not too far from arms length.
Snatching her back as she turns away,
Into your grasp she falls.

Romeo and Juliet,
How their secret moments are hidden from all.
Only in memory
Protected by the walls of the dock and
By the casting of darkness by the night.
Slowly they fade away.
Like sand blown by the wind in the palms of my hands.

A song begins to play.
Only I can hear it now.
Suddenly, Juliet appears.
Looking over the railing.
Oh how the stars reflect on the lake.
She is met by her Romeo.
He takes her hands and holds her waist.
Simply but with such grace and elegance,
He glides her around in a dance.
Whispers of the heart are exchanged between the lovers,
How the sandman casts a sleeping spell on everyone,
So that Juliet may dance with her Romeo.

The wind blows and they are gone again.
My eyes are met by the swift brush of a my hand.
A tear escapes the quick motion and it falls from my cheek.
I glance up to the stars.
How they seem to feel..
they seem to feel what I am feeling.
The twinkle is more of a smile,
A wink.

A reminder that my Romeo is missing me too.
For they have seen him,
When I have not.
They tell me of his tears,
Of his sadness.
They bring me a message,
A song,
A poem,
A groan from his guitar.

The stars understand how Juliet feels tonight.
For while there is no Romeo tonight,
As such tonight, in the sky,
the stars find themselves moonless.
Two loves with out their others.

Jan 2, 2011

Mr. Awesome Sends Another Poem

I just got this text from Mr. Awesome.

Hidden Treasure

Enigma's around in black and white
Emerald's and rubies,
Neither of them shine so bright as
The light I see shinning in
The eyes that melt my heart.

OK so the AMAZINGLY AWESOME thing about this.... is... If you know anything about Edgar Allan Poe and what he did in his poems then you will get this. He would code things in his poems such as the name of his love. There is a code in here that he sent me!! Anyways I had to share!

Mr. Awesome Makes Me Cry

Its been....a crazy few days.. But I just have to say... I Love Mr. Awesome. I've expressed that a lot! But.... read this and tell me you wouldn't say that too!

"Hey, babe. Your my treasure. You deserve to have a perfect boyfriend. Dashing prince to save you from anything that frightens you! But you chose me. A scarred and broken beggar. So I've got to make my meager qualities shine as best they can for you, i can't give you a castle. But i can give away anything that makes you unhappy. Maybe the shack will be a little more bearable for you, my treasure"

"hey, I was thinking. Baby, i don't always listen to you like i should. there are a lot of things i don't know about you. I call you my treasure, but sometimes i don't treat you like it. Will you forgive me?

Is this not What so many of us desire to hear deep inside? Ok...look...Mr. Awesome... earned his name. I love him sooo much...and it brings tears to read this. These came out of no where. I only shared 2 text with you...maybe i'll share some others...maybe not. haha. Wel.. its late...Need to go to bed. night!

Jan 1, 2011

Mr. Awesome and His Words

So here is something he wrote me back in like....November. I found it on my computer! I just love this!!!!

My favorite sound.

By Steven Jashub Comstock

It’s a split second connection of expectation to a satisfaction. The sound of your screen door. I pull up in your driveway. Missing you. I turn on the country station, missing you. I put the car in park, and roll my window down; my ears are listening for the squeak of your screen door. To me, it is the most beautiful piece of music ever written. My heart jumps, and feels full when I see you. No matter what is going on, no matter how many problems are weighing on my mind, no matter how sad I am, the sound of your screen door opening drives them away. Because the sound of your screen door means you will be in my arms soon. So nothing else is important. I hope to go on for the rest of my life, knowing that no matter what is going on, I just have to listen for you door to open. You are all I need.

Mr. Awesome Sends A Poem

This is a poem Mr. Awesome sent me in a text tonight. We are on break from school. We parted ways ....just over 2 weeks ago and still have another 2 weeks and some days until we get to see each other. He lives In Alabama and I'm in Florida. So here is the text I got!

Thoughts Of Emily

By Steven Jashub Comstock

The southern wind blows on my face,
And makes my loneliness feel out of place.
I sit here and play this simple tune,
And my guitar it moans because it misses you,
And so do i.

Mr. Awesome Writes A Song

I just wanted to say that my boyfriend Jash, Really is Amazing! Sometime October or November he wrote me a song and he gave me permission to post it on my blog! So here it is.

Until Midnight

By Steven Jashub Comstock

Hey Cinderella,
Your arms beckon me, like the siren’s call
And you’re beautiful, like the colors of fall
Lighting up the grayest of my grays
The moon – it shines, and lights up my teary eyes
While I feel as dark and lonely as this nighttime sky
And I don’t like the way, it going

Until midnight won’t you be mine, and we’ll dance to the rhythm of
The clock hand keeping time
If dreams are the wishes of my hear, well mine came true
I’m holding the love of my life until midnight

I’m glad you dropped your slipper made of glass
Otherwise I would have never found the glue to my broken path.
And the perfect princess never would of found this misfit prince
Oh, it looked like our heart beats interfered
With the clock ticker and its keepin years
That clock hand is still on 11:59
Looks like we’ve got forever until


Until midnight we’ve got forever, an we can go dance
Feet lighter than the lightest feather


Dear 2011

Dear 2011,
Its nice to meet. so recently I ended a relationship with 2010, and I really liked him. You...are an Odd Number and I am OCD...This relationship may already have some issues. BUT!! I'm willing to set that aside and make this work. So to start I guess we need to work on this resolution thing.. Well...I need to work more on this school thing.. speaking of this whole procrastination thing...yeah...I can keep putting it off..but...this may be the year to fix it. You know how Britt Nicole puts it... I want to set the world on fire. I want to help JJ get our youth group Set on FIRE!!!! These kids have been through a lot and its time to step up. Lets see...there is always the eating more healthy and loosing weight thing. Yeah thats a great one... I mean... I'm all up for it..but have you eaten at school??? Not much to choose from...but recently i've been working on it so i'd like to bring that into this relationship. Haha. Okay what else... OH!!! This is...really important. OK soo...There is a guy in my life. He just so happens to be my boyfriend. He is so FANTASTIC and AMAZING!!! We've had our ups and downs. There was a time when there wasn't even an us. However we have worked through a lot of things and this feels so different. We are on the same page and we have come to realize what we mean to each other. We've become very open about things and its great. I have to let you know something. I am way over my head. I love this boy with a Deep, Hopeful, Zealous, Forgiving, Honest, Jealous, an unfailing, a kind, patient, protective, Honoring, and Trustful, passion. Starting off this new year He gave me his heart. He already had mine but i asked him if he would have it. So, 2011 my resolution on this is more of a promise. I promise to protect his heart and guard it. Also with my friends, I want to become a better friend. Be there for them like they have for me. Pray for them more and pray with them. Be the Godly woman they can come talk to. Most of my friends are much younger so I hope i can help. And just have fun and enjoy second chances. ♥ This new year is gonna be Awesome. I'm excited about our relationship. Well... Got to go...there is a pile of homework to be done by tomorrow haha.